Everything seems to be coming to an end lately. After 14 months of work, my thesis will be finished tomorrow. In 9 days, I’ll no longer have to post daily November blogs. In less than 4 weeks, I will have completed my masters degree and will no longer live in the Netherlands. I will no longer be in college. I will no longer be a student. After almost 8 years, this is the first time that I am not planning on further study. For the first time, I know that a period in my life is ending but I have no idea when my new beginning is officially going to start. For the first time, I have no concrete idea of where I am going to be next year, what I’ll be doing, where I’ll be living. Of course, me being me, I have a plan (and a back up plan!) that I am working towards, but what if it doesn’t materialise? Can I not just stay in my little academic cocoon? This whole life after college thing is starting to slightly worry me.
The picture above is one of my favourites. It was taken on my graduation from college last year, marking the end of my undergraduate education and the start of my journey towards a masters degree. I’m with two of my favourite people in the world, my grandparents, or as I like to call them, Nana and Nick. They are possibly the coolest grandparents in the world. They text. They Skype. They Facebook. They are total fashionistas with their matching outfits (disclaimer: they don’t usually do this!)!!! With this in mind, I started to think how many endings they must have experienced throughout their 80+ years. Quite frankly, they make the endings I am facing now seem shallow and ridiculous.
So instead of dwelling on endings and fearing the future, I’ve decided to not worry as much and just focus on the now. As a bit of a control freak (no shame – Carly, I refer to your latest blog!!), I like to know what my next step is. This is new territory for me. And while I know where I’d like to be next year, there is no guarantee that it’s going to happen. As Cicero once said “nobody can give you wiser advice than yourself” so for now, it’s work hard, play hard, and not stress over the unknown.
“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all” – Hellen Keller